Baking makes you roll with the punches. It's taught me to walk out the door when there's nothing else I can do and trust that it will turn out all right. Or it won't. And I'll start from the beginning. There's always more flour.
You don't try new foods because you're afraid of the unknown. You're afraid you won't like it, that it will feel gross in your mouth, that it will taste bad. I'm interested in the repercussions of that fear, how the fear of experiencing new foods inhibits us from being better people.
I vaguely remember sitting in the restaurant and thinking that I wouldn't let myself flinch or act like I didn't know what to do when the sushi came. I can't remember if I used chopsticks or not, though I'm sure I did and I'm sure I looked a fool. I get hellbent on things like that.
Fad diets are infuriating to me. They convince people to spend money on products and books that push one idea or philosophy of eating when there just isn't one way or philosophy of eating that will work for everyone. I want you to eat what you want to eat. I want you to eat what works for your lifestyle and your body.
I never went back for seconds. I'd stopped enjoying eating. Eating was terrifying. I held blueberries in my mouth for what felt like entire minutes, rolling them between my teeth and around my tongue. The slower I ate, the less I ate.
Be okay with the first few rounds turning out like trash. This might not happen. My first two croissant recipes were good, but they were a lot more like dressed-up biscuits if the dresses were from H&M and the biscuits had been wearing the dresses all night and the biscuits were already at their third bar. I enjoyed eating them, but they weren't croissants is all I'm saying.
I was raised on country music and the stories that the songs told. I was twenty-four before I embraced my love for the songs and the genre. I'd internalized the white trash stigma that came with loving country music. In country music, people live in trailers. People are poor. Folks drink Bud Light. I didn't think I was allowed to admit those things about myself or my life, and liking country music meant I had to.